You Know You Love Me.

2011-07-29T00:49:00.002+08:00

Hi, blogging again. Just for fun.
Wow, so much happened since the last posts.
So much have changed.

Yes, not feelin' good right now. Thus I am here. rmb blogging almost every single day of my sec sch life. Now tumblr is the "in" thing yo.

My nails are super pretty.
Anyway, its my exam week. Fuckin' stress, I have to retake Econs and Poa's sub paper. fml.
I don't even know if I am eligible for the Econ's sub. double FML.

the only thing I am lookin' forward to is the date with mah gurls tml.

Bridesmaids and then rebel.

Good lord please let me see you.

2011-01-11T06:42:00.001+08:00

Stanley I am sorry, come back. I miss you.

2010-09-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

Anything for you.

Never forget what they did to you. Never let em know you remember.

2010-09-01T19:48:00.004+08:00

I feel fed up. I am listening to old songs.
I don't wanna cry myself to sleep again.
I don't wanna seek comfort in the dark.

But I cried, I sigh, I complained and I nagged
I seek and seek and seek.
I know I still doesn't matter.
I looked thru your old tumblr posts.
Pictures that I love, things I'll do.
Don't believe you don't feel a thing.

Tried, tired.

His Godsent

2010-08-01T23:51:00.001+08:00

Godsent.

His not meant for cuddling sessions, he cannot tell you I love you without making you laugh, sometimes he gets so serious he gets angry. He kept quiet when your in the wrong, he cannot kiss without motive but he likes to kiss your hands and cheeks. He forced you to put your head on his shoulders after making you angry. Whenever you try to walk away from him, he chase. But when you ran so fast he couldn’t catch, he’d be at the door waiting. He don’t sweet talk much but whenever he does, you know that he mean it. He often tells you about his future planning, he thought you’d never listen but you can memorise it. And yknow when you need anything, he’d be there anytime, anywhere.He is the tree I wanna marry.

Stephen Jerzak & Leighton Meester - She Said LYRICS ON SCREEN

2010-07-26T13:28:00.000+08:00

Grab a drink dancin’ under flashin’ lights
She’s a queen but she won’t put up a fight
Everybody knows that she’s a looker but she ain’t quite
right
So I lie through my teeth again

Been around see I think I know her type
Honesty is not the policy she likes
Choice words spoken to her in the heat of night
So I lie through my teeth again

Oo boy would you mind if I got closer
Oo boy I can tell you want me don’t ya
And I say why do you think that a wink can get you
anything you ask for out on the dance floor
She said
Oo do you love me

I wonder why she talks like that
Tell me something
Tell me how’d you get to be so bad
Hey I know something you don’t
Let’s go
We can go wherever you want to go
How would you feel if I told ya
You ain’t worth the trouble

It’s hard to think dancin’ under flashin’ lights
Touchin’ me tellin’ me I’m just her type
And everyone’s tellin’ me that she’s the hollywood hype
so tonight I’m gonna lie through my teeth again.

She’s lookin’ at me and I know that she don’t see
I couldn’t love her when there so many others
Blowin’ kisses at me but she aims too high
How could I love her when there’s so many other?

kiss me now and i'll show you what temptations all about

2010-07-26T13:19:00.003+08:00

Rina: I realised you really can go on and on and on and on and on. After BIL&E.

Yes. I am still in the vicious circle. Going round and round and round and round.
I am starting to get dizzy spell.
I am a fighter, I will never stop.
I will hold on to things that keeps me alive.

Leaves in the River- Sea Wolf

2010-07-06T13:28:00.000+08:00

I will never get sick of this song.

Its soothing like leaves on still water.

A destiny worth awaiting.

A relationship out of my reach.

Palm reading.

2010-07-01T17:42:00.004+08:00

Palm reading! So interesting!

Thats what I come out from my own palm reading.

Interpret the heart line
Begins below the middle finger - selfish when it comes to love
Wavy - many relationships and lovers, absence of serious relationships
Smaller lines crossing through heart line - emotional trauma

Examine the head line
Wavy line - short attention span
Deep, long line - thinking is clear and focused
Multiple crosses through head line - momentous decisions

Evaluate the life line
Multiple life lines - extra vitality
Break - sudden change in lifestyle

Determine the hand shape
Air - square or rectangular palms with long fingers and sometimes protruding knuckles, low-set thumbs, and dry skin; length of the palm less than length of fingers

Sociable, talkative and witty
Can be shallow, spiteful and cold
Comfortable with the mental and the intangible
Do things in different and radical ways

You can read yours HERE!

Palm reading.

2010-07-01T17:42:00.001+08:00

You know I'd fight for you, but how can I fight for someone who isn't even there?

2010-06-22T03:35:00.002+08:00

If your birthday is on the 12th day of the month

You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper.

Your Love

You seem to be contented with your unrequited love because you strongly believe that you will eventually win your partner's heart. On the other hand, once you are together, you always want to do things your way, which is often the fire starter. You usually run in and out of love quickly.

yes, unrequited love.
But I don't know how much longer I can go on.
Hearts? I won none.
But got mine broken.
Broken but never shattered.

And I've been dying to know; who's your heart beating for?

2010-06-16T01:02:00.002+08:00

Life's ........
As peaceful as it may seems.
I don't really feel good.
Nobody dig a piece of my heart.
But I felt like it wonder off on its own.
Screaming boredom in my body.

I am too young to feel this old.

I just feel different.
Like Dion's not Dion anymore.

Its okay. Like what rina said,
" Sometimes I wanna console her, but I have faith in her for getting over things real fast"
I love her for understanding me.
And today I realised, she treats me like a little sister.
She understands that I NEED companies :)
It must be the Leo in her.

I am loving that Nicole Huang Meien has gain her freedom.
But she gotta control her $$ man. :)

Jeline Chia please meet me up sooooon :D love ya.

2010-06-07T12:39:00.000+08:00

We play fight, insult each other, wind each other up so much and just generally drive each other crazy. And our friends tease us because they can see the intimateness of the fighting, the cuteness of the insults, the eye contact during the wind ups, and the mile-wide smiles we have when we say we're getting on each other's nerves. They can see we're meant to be.

2010-05-02T12:19:00.002+08:00

Sure thing, I've changed.
But is it for the better or bad?

If this causes me to lose you.
I don't want it.

2010-05-01T10:37:00.002+08:00

My blog's kinda dead.
But my life has just got less mundane.
New friends, classmates. They are all damn nice. :)
I miss going out with my girls. Back in those days when we don't even have to make time for each other. Cause we know, the next day we woke up, we gonna see each other naturally. Its kinda like a," what are we gonna do today?" than," when are you free to meet me?"

And, I don't feel like I have a need to report what I do and post pictures up on my blog.
My facebook has tons of them.
My twitter has records of where I am, what am I doing and how I feel.
I post pretty pictures and quotes at Tumblr.
I will blog whenever I feel like I have a need to do so.
So its not gonna be on regular basis. More like an impromptu occasion. Like right now.

Okay.
See you guys over at facebook for twitter alright?
Loves.

Seems like you were lost and I was bored. So let's make love this summer and shut the world out.

2010-04-11T12:34:00.004+08:00

I used to complain, life is so boring with you around.
Forever doing the same old thing.
Watching you doing your own shopping were such a chore, as you're super choosy.
We used to run out of movies to watch, because we watch movies almost everyday.
Chilling out at your place, fooling around and wrestle each other.
I used to find that boring and just a waste of time.
But now,
Our lifestyles were not what it used to be.
You work your butts out almost everyday,
I club, chill with friends and waste every god damn day.

And you know what, I missed being bored out with you.
Yes, life is boring and predictable with you.
But did I tell you?
Life is almost unbearable without you.
Where's my boy? My best friend and soulmate.

Now, the person who knows everything about me is no longer you.
Its Rina.
We talked every single day.
And you know what, I am attached, but I feel like, I am single.
Just like Rina.
I might be feeling more carefree than her.
Because she's working.

Fml.

We all became what we don't intend to be.

2010-03-28T17:28:00.000+08:00

lollipops turn into cigarettes. the innocent ones turn into sluts. homework goes into the trash. detention becomes suspension. mobile phones are used in class. soda becomes vodka. bikes become cars. kisses turn into sex. remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground? when protection meant wearing a helmet?… when the worst thing you could get from boys were cooties? dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth, and your mom was your hero? race issues were who ran the fastest. the only drug you knew of was cough medecine. the most pain you felt was when you scraped your knees. goodbyes were only until tomorrow. we couldn’t even wait to grow up.

2010-03-25T05:32:00.002+08:00

One day I'll turn my head and look back at all the stupid things I have done & I am gonna ask myself if its all worth it.

Why can't I be a good girl?
Isn't true that once a good girl turn bad, you can never bring her back?

Why am I always trying to outsmart you?
Why can't I just listen to you everytime?
Just like the past.

Whatever, I am gonna lose more weight and leave the rest to God.

In God, we trust.
Amen. <3

2010-03-17T04:19:00.001+08:00

I hate blogging here. I prefer my facebook, twitter and tumblr!

See you over there loves!

I build myself up and fly around in circles. Waiting as my heart drops. Finally, could this be it?

2010-03-07T20:46:00.002+08:00

What Happens When You Fall In Love With

A chef? (You get buttered up.)
A chauffeur? (You get taken for a ride.)
A gambler? (He cheats on you.)
A telephone operator? (He gives you a phone-y line.)
A trashman? (He dumps you.)
A clockmaker? (He two-times you.)
A pastry cook? (He desserts you.)
A shoe salesman? (He walks all over you.)
An elevator operator? (He lets you down.)
An artist? (He gives you the brush.)
A jogger? (He gives you the run-around.)

2010-03-02T01:36:00.001+08:00

I`m the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows ;
Who will listen to a love song & see his face ; Who will look for him wherever she goes.
I`m the type of girl who doesn`t get over things easily ; Who will beat herself up when someone doesn`t love her back ; Who will cry herself to sleep cause she feels she`s not good enough.
I`m the kind of girl who can talk to a total stranger about anything & everything, but I can`t tell my best friend how much I`m hurting.
I hate not being invited to parties only cause I feel so alone, & I can`t understand how I don`t have many friends.
I`m the kind of girl who can pick herself up, & I can switch my feelings in a minute.But I`m also the type of girl who`s strong ; Who can cry her eyes out then forbid them to come back the next morning ;
Who will blast some old pop song & sing at the top of her lungs cause she feels like it ; Who will be no one but herself

I'm messy and sarcastic and jealous and vain and i'm standing here asking you to love me for all I am

2010-02-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

I`m no where near perfect. i eat when i`m bored; i fall for boys too easily; i`m vulnerable to believing lies. I`m hoping that one day i don`t need a fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what i`m going through. I make up excuses for everything. I have best friends & enemies. I have drama & memories, & sometimes i forget why i`m even here.

The bravest that I've ever been was when I ran away from you.

2010-02-25T18:49:00.003+08:00

He’s my kiss in the rain, my dance with no music.

he’s my kiss on the forehead, I love you, sweet dreams,

goodnight. he’s the ~~never~~ want to be without you kind

of guy. I’m living the dream every girl wants to live

see how he comes up and tells a stupid joke, and she
rolls her eyes at him and seems annoyed? look in her
eyes and you can tell she secretly loves it.

I am really so damn sick of this scene.

2010-02-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

Life with Stanley is boring and predictable,
but life without Stanley is unbearable.
His my shelter, my big tree, my daily problem solver.
He'll laugh with me at all the girls I hated.
Insults all the boys I thought was cute.
His always nagging at me because of all the shits I did.
But I was not allow to do the same.
We forgive each others' shits because we cannot stand each others' absence.
His oh so tough but I am his 1st weakness.
His more than a bf, his my family, my habit my home.

2010-02-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

I'm the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows; who will listen to a love song and see his face; who will look for him wherever she goes. I'm the type of girl who doesn't get over things easily; who will beat herself up when someone doesn't love her back; who will cry herself to sleep because she feels she's not good enough. But I'm also the type of girl who's strong; who can cry her eyes out and then forbid them to come back the next morning; who will blast some old pop song and sing it at the top of her lungs because she feels like it; who will be no one but herself.

You can't save a damsel if she loves her distress.

2010-02-09T20:14:00.006+08:00

Sakae with dear Eileen Chong!

I used to know this girl who gave her love away to every guy she met. & with all the games they played, she never seemed to cry, she never got upset. & one by one they came, & one by one they left. I thought that I could fix her if she would let me in. But all of my advances were shut down, in the end. When the days turned into months, I begged her to explain & this is what she sang: "It's not like I'm a slut, I just want every boy I see to walk away with a part of me until there's nothing left to hold, until there's nothing left to hate. I appreciate your help but even you can't save me from myself."

Now, everything's back to normal.
Don't you worry love.
I don't need any hero in my sky anymore.
I am Dion Ho.
And I am fine.
:)
watch me fly.

You can tell a lot about a person's character by what they smile about.

2010-02-04T21:17:00.005+08:00

Study session with Pam at sch library turn cam-whoring session.
Grrrr.

I am not those kinda skinny girls who whine like mad about how much they need to lose weight.
I whine because I am really fat now.

I need to lose weight.

I need to study.

I need to sleep early.

I need to spend lesser.

And I better do all of the above.

I love that you make up silly little excuses to come over when we both know that you just want to see me, even if it's only for ten minutes.

Good girls blush during sex scenes in a movie. Bad girls know they could do it better.

2010-02-02T17:57:00.004+08:00

In school library now.
Yeah, I know.
I ended up watching GG s1, using FB, reading quotes And Blogging.
HAHA at Dion.
Whatever.

I am getting real fat.
Need to do something about it. I am serious.
Bored out to the max
going to watch tooth fairy with Stanley ltr.
And Bob's a retard.

Failed Pick-Up Lines

“Haven’t I seen you someplace before?”
“Yeah, that’s why I don’t go there anymore.”

“Is this seat empty?”
“Yes, and this one will be too if you sit down.”

“I know how to please a woman.”
“Then please leave me alone.”

“I want to give myself to you.”
“Sorry, I don’t accept cheap gifts.”

“I can tell that you want me.”
“Ohhhh. You’re so right. I want you… to leave.”

“Hey, baby, What’s your sign?”
“Stop.”

“Hey cutie, how ‘bout you and I hitting the hot spots?”
“Sorry, I don’t date outside my species.”

“Your place or mine?”
“Both. You go to yours and I’ll go to mine.”

If you are looking at a girl and she says “What are you looking at?”
say “I thought you were good looking, but I was mistaken.”

He: Would you like to dance?
She: Not with you.
He: Oh, come on. Lower your standards a little, I just did.

Q: What’s your name sexy?
A: Taken!

Q: Do you believe in love at first sight or do you want me to walk by again?
A: Yeah, but this time don’t stop!

People do things every day that could kill them. But it doesn't mean they want to die.

2010-02-01T10:57:00.003+08:00

I hate routines like this.
As much as I love going to school because of my classmates and friends.
But I hate to wake up every morning and dying to go back to sleep.
I hate going clubbing and schooling the next day.
Its either club or school.
So I am not clubbing anymore till my holidays' here.

I am caught up in the middle.
I gotta choose.
My life's too complicating for my simple mind.
My 11:11 wish never comes true.
I can never concentrate at only one and I am annoyed at myself.
But as long as the vodka's in my hand, my girls in my heart.
My life can get more fucked up.

I'm not a tease, Im just a reminder of what you can't have

2010-01-28T22:26:00.009+08:00

Alright, damn long since I blogged.
My life is thoroughly messed up. The days I skipped school are more than the days I attended.
I Rebelled twice every week.
I haven't been watching movie.
I haven't had a nice long sleep for awhile.
I haven't been taking care of my skin.
I eat way too much.
My fringe is so damn ugly I gotta clipped them up everyday.
And I need more clothes. I am running outta nice dresses and practically finished wearing all my tees.

KKKK, Jeline's birthday.
I MADE HER CRY. HAHAHHA
I am so proud k.
Rina and Meien kept on wet blanket me, say I damn stupid, confirm no surprise for Jeline.
But she fall for it. Looks whose dumbest? OKAY JELINE I AM KIDDING I LOVE YOU TO BITZZXZXZXZXZX. AND YOU KNOW IT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR GIRL. MUACKS!

Damn long since the 3 of us appeared in one photo!

she's just looking for a liquor cabinet thrill; a waste of time.

2010-01-26T03:38:00.001+08:00

You are basically a person who enjoys reminiscing.

You are a very emotional person indeed, easily influenced by people and your surroundings. For example, if society is sad about the death of famous people, you will share these sentiments, or when watching a sad movie, you will be so engrossed that you will end up being sadder than the main actors in the movie.

YOUR LOVE

Are you a very confused person?
Sometimes you like to be left alone.
Sometimes you want to be loved.
Sometimes you need him or her.
Sometimes you don't.
Does it sound familiar?

WTH.

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different resul

2010-01-19T10:58:00.001+08:00

I make mistakes. I have regrets. I hate being alone. Im always late.
I hate school, I never call anyone back. I dont like being wrong. im a huge procrastinator.
i act like im a lot tougher then i am. i hate being ignored. i get annoyed by people too easily.
i cant sing. i can't trust anyone with my life. many things seem to get to me.
im not perfect but the beauty of it is, that I don't care.

Player to all Lover to some Juliet to one.

2010-01-12T19:20:00.007+08:00

Omg, I miss Powerhouse can. Have been rebel-ing for dont know how many weeks.
"stare at Jeline"

Alright, anyway, this are all the peeks taken with Jeline and Rina at various places, Rebel/Zirca and JJ's chalet.
We had so much fun. :D

Fav pic of the day man ( Daryl officially stole my baby J)
But I am still happy for you guys! :D:D:D

WEIHOE.

Rina Dionnnn.

OMG. JELINE, LOOK AT OUR HAIR!

this one toooo. :(

Hi Chuaa.

NigelLam:)

JJ's Chaletttt!

This is JJJJJ.

I'm ready to be the girl I used to be. The one who never cried, never got mad about dumb things, and the one girl who would never worry about being in love.

skjhwiutljksanbdfkja I laugh when I see you because you try too hard.

2010-01-09T15:47:00.003+08:00

I totally lost any interest to blog, to take pictures during outings with the girls with my cam.
Guess this may be the time when I am truly happy with my life, or I just lost interest.

Sorry.

But my love for quotes continues though, so I will spamming this blog with QUOTES QUOTES QUOTES AND QUOTES.

till I found my will to upload all the pictures and upload em.
haha.

So, school reopens, I attend 2 days outta 5. Round of applause please.
Fuck lah, I really need more more more motivations please.

So, NEW YEAR 2010.
Letme see, what've changed.

I permed my hair AGAIN.
I start using fake eye lashes.
I lost contacts with many of my loves.( I have been working on that I swear)
I realised I actually like being alone. ( So much for being a Leo.)
Jeline got a new bf. ( Its totally annoying. I see his name once in every 5 tweets she tweeted.)
I brought new make ups and changed my eyeliner brand. ( its good I swear)
I gain appetite. ( holy shit)
I cut down on ice creams. ( good sign, means I am always happy)
I buy more dresses than tees.

WAIT. WHY AM I STATING SO MUCH? ITS JUST THE 1ST WEEK.

Cheers, and have a nice weekend.
Heading down town to meet gf and bf and off to rebel with Daryl and co.
loves.

The Truth About Girls:
*Flirting is a talent.
*We love to sing in the shower.
*We are not ashamed to cry.
*We will never be too old for sleepovers.
*We must go to the bathroom in groups.
*It takes at least an hour to look this good.
*Midol is like crack, end of story.
*Gossip isn't a sin, it's an art.
*We love Ben & Jerry's more than you. (:

someday, someone will come into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

2010-01-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

i don’t have a fear of commitment, i have a fear of abandonment.
we all screw things up, i screw things up. especially with the people I love.
i get needy, i get moody, i get distant, i want to be too close.
i get confused, i don’t understand all of it.
but i keep pushing because i hope in this thing, the universe,
there’s no way i’m the only person out there who wants something this bad.
if i want it, someone else out there must too.

A mistake is only really a mistake if you don't learn from it.

2009-12-30T06:05:00.001+08:00

The Human Philosophy: Why do we always reject those who love us, and love someone who doesn't love us in the first place?

Answer: Unconsciously, we enjoy being hurt.

Chuck & Blair.

2009-12-26T17:22:00.002+08:00

2009-12-26T07:59:00.001+08:00

dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him.
dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies.
dear pillow, sorry for all the tears.
dear heart, sorry for all the damage.

let's never talk about this again because I didn't want it to mean that much to me.

2009-12-18T01:33:00.006+08:00

this is to the nights when you dealt with more drama than you wanted to because you're a nice person.
to the nights that you drank too much and made mistakes that no one forgot for months and months.
this is to the nights that you hooked up with that guy, feeling used and alone after. to the nights you would've rather stayed home, watching movies, but instead got dressed up in clothes that weren't as comfortable as sweatpants, went to that party you didn't really want to be at, to find the boy you like there with some other girl. to the nights that you can't wait until everybody grows up, because you're tired of them all judging you. to those nights, that came too soon..

Its all the same. Its all games and we are just the players.
No point taking things too seriously.
Because if you don't care, don't give a fucking damn to this world.
Nothing can hurt you.

When everyone is so self obsessed in their world.
Dion hopes that she belong to none.
leave me alone.

2009-12-12T14:24:00.000+08:00

Just because somebody flirts with you
doesn't mean they like you.
Just because somebody likes you
doesn't mean they want to go out with out.
Just because somebody goes out with you
doesn't mean they love you.
Just because somebody loves you
doesn't mean they won't hurt you
Because people lie & things change.
Boyfriends cheat, best friends leave,
& there will always be those people
that would kill to see you fall

Secretly I hope he's miserable. Even more secretly, I hope he's happy.

2009-12-09T15:19:00.005+08:00

Okay, I know its all quotes, quotes & quotes.
But what to do? my life so boring now.
But know what? Its holidays next week. :D
So, it means more peeks and fun. WOOHOO.

ps: I feel like there's a hole in my heart. someone fill it up please.

It's like we're more then friends but less then lovers. You're oh so tough  but I want to be your first weakness. Here we go again with mixed signals  & second thoughts. <3
idiot.

He’s the boy that

Makes me feel every cliché in the book

The one who you think about

While reading this quote.

&& I guess you're proof that

When you let go of the past,
something better comes along.

Don't settle for the guy

Who’s going to wait on you.
Wait for the one who

Pushes your buttons &&
Makes you mad on a daily basis.
Love isn't supposed to be easy,

It’s supposed to be worth it.

What goes around comes around, baby I thought you knew. Do somebody wrong for too long,
its gonna get done to you and you did me bad and got away, play me like a fool
Thought you knew, 360 is coming right back to you. You must be sitting on top of the world
Feeling like you’re finally free and you will see that it won’t be too long
Taking what you deserve, then you’re the one that somebody leaves
Then you’ll think of me and wish you never did me wrong baby.

"She belonged to me," he said simply. "She was, you know, all the things I wasn't. And I was all the things she wasn't. She could paint circles around anyone; I can't even draw a straight line. She was never into sports; I've always been." he lifted his outstretched palm and curled his fingers. "Her hand," he said. "It fit mine."

Forget the night life; you're my favorite thing about this town

2009-12-08T15:10:00.004+08:00

GIRL LANGUAGE
When I run away from you-
Follow Me
When I pout my lips-
Kiss me
When I pull away-
Grab me by the waist
&& tell me you’ll never let me go
When I ignore you-
I want all your attention
When you see me at my worst-
Tell me I’m beautiful
When I scream at you-
Kiss me && tell me you love me
If I don’t call you-
I’m waiting on you to call me
When I look scared-
Hold me by the waist
&& tell me everything will be alright
When I hold your hand-
Play with my fingers

One day, on a far away land, I will find my hero.

He has the ability to make me smile faster than someone can snap their fingers.

You tore her up, shattered her heart and stomped on the peices until you saw nothing but the ground. You did it so silently; there wasn't a sound. Not only did you destroy her silently, but you made sure no one could hear her screams, for you tied that gag around her mouth ever so tightly.

I really just want to kick
you when you just reply with
a "haha" or "lol" in a message.
Just don't even bother responding.

Him: I really wanted to call you last night…
Her: Why didn’t you?
Him: Because I didn’t want to wake my sleep beauty
Her: And that’s how sleeping beauty wasted a lifetime away

I hope you look at me when im laughing with my friends, i hope you look at me when im my prettiest, i hope you see me when im the faking my happiest face, and i hope that seeing me fine without you; kills you.

What am I to do? To choose the man of my dreams,or to choose the prince charming?

she knows what you’re thinking, but,
she doesn’t let you know she’s got you figured out.

in the game of seduction, there's only one rule. never fall in love.

Theres this boy, and he makes me smile. I found that after a while, hes the only boy I want to talk to.
Besides my best friend. But thats besides the point. :]

Guess what kid, your getting to her. Please don't hurt her. She doesn't deserve it. Shes been hurt too much before.

Smiling is my favorite. You make me smile. That makes you my favorite.

There’s been other guys. Other crushes, Other people that have text me late at night. But when I found you, I knew that you weren’t just another guy.<3

yes, thats you idiot.

I would turn away the world Just to have you here with me tonight.

2009-12-03T14:33:00.003+08:00

"Hold your head high.
Don't ever let 'em define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them Hell.
You can take on this world.
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl."

I am feeling the need to do some drinking.
Actually, I’m feeling the need to do some crying, but my tear ducts seem to be too
proud, so I am going to do some drinking instead.
You should recognize this next move because you perfected it. It's called turning my back on you and leaving you behind.

I can't decide if I actually want a boyfriend or if I just want the security of knowing someone has feelings for me.
Honey, just remember, if you ever need anything,
feel free to ask someone else.

Words can wound, and wounds can heal. So I would prefer if you say something other than silence.

2009-12-01T00:58:00.007+08:00

Supperclub, is *&^%$#@!@# dont like.
Bounce to PH around 2?
Jeline is ^%$#$%, but not dead drunk.
and she wanna tryyy. if she try, I can cry. ( wow, rhythm siaaa)
ENENENEN, club virgin.
she prefers PH too.
NANA didn't came down. Shanon missed her so much.
AND I LOVE YOU SHANON. SORRY FOR CLEARING UP MY SHITS ALL THE TIME.
and shanon and nana's pretty gf, cheryl. haha.

ALL RESERVED.

The beds are loved. <3

B and J. HAHA.

Sheesha with shanon, en and Jel. <3

Guess who we saw outside PH? Aww, kirk, you gotta go home.

So unglam, rina still snap snap snap.

We are cab-lovers.

Okayyy, these pictures are a week old.

She's living on dreams she can't get enough of,
thinking of scenes that please.
She's got hopes as big as stars,
and thoughts that just won't leave

yes ; she has trust issues . but if you were her... you would too.

2009-11-29T23:10:00.005+08:00

Busy Busy Busy weekend.
Club Club Club.
And I vomited Blood at powerhouse! Eeeyerrr.
powerhouse got my DNA everywhere on Fri.

"Heres a song, for the night, I drink so much and spilled the words"
but I didn't regret. just to let you know. cause now, I knew.

Sat, Supperclub, its was BORING. Bounce to powerhouse after that.
I likeeeee.
Brought En alongggg. she damn cuteeeeee!
Update more on sat the next post.

LIBRARY.

she knows so many pretty boys, they are all the same.

2009-11-25T16:18:00.003+08:00

Just once, I want to be hard to leave. I want someone staying up all night thinking only of me.

As much as I like fairytale, I never watch Aladdin before, even when I did the" which of one of the disney princess are you?"
they came up " Princess Jasmine" tons of times, I didn't even bother.
I always prefer Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Snow white. where the male leads are all Princes.
Aladdin is different, his a nobody. Maybe thats the reason.
But it amazed me, goosebumps all over when they sang " a whole new world "
Makes me want to be in a relationship so bad! ( as much as I love my freedom now )

I remember my conversation with En when we are like 13?
Keep talking about what kind of bf we want to have and stuffs like that.
It all come to one conclusion now.
THEY DIED. The kinda bf we talked about in the past is dead, probably extinct already.

Whatever, I just want somebody who cares.
"To me, you are the prince"

A whole new world, A whole new life
For you and me.

Maybe it’s not about the happy ending, maybe it’s about the story that gets you there. =)

One day, his name just didn't make me smile anymore.

2009-11-24T01:17:00.002+08:00

So I'm scared, I'm scared to admit that, maybe I am falling for you. I'm scared thatit will turn out like the last one or the one before. Both of them had given the same endings. I'm scared to think that, what makes this one so different? But it's you,you're the one that's different. And it's me, each one changed me. But I'm still scared. Just tell me you want to be with me. Fight for me, you know I'd fight for you. Be with me, you know I'll always want to be with you.

Just talk to me. Just tell me how you feel. I know it's scary and I
know you had a hard time. But just tell me if you can show me your
heart. Because if you do, I'll guard it with my life. Just say okay.

I feel like maybe I really am happier alone. Like maybe the safety of my own skull is all I can trust.
My skull is a cushion, I can bounce thoughts around inside my head. They never get hurt. But it's
when I start bouncing them off of other things, that is when the real damage gets done.

If he can't love you the way you love him
why won't you give up?

All I want is one chance, one kiss,
one night to show you what you mean to me.
One chance to spend my day with you,
to show you how we're so alike.
One kiss to prove that we're more than friends.
One night to hold you tight.

She always wondered what it meant to wear your heart on your sleeve. Well when she met you, she found out.

2009-11-22T20:25:00.008+08:00

I'm not a little girl anymore. For anyone that's ever betrayed me,
intentionally hurt me, or backstabbed me; I'm not going to dwell
on trying to make your life miserable and tell you I'm gonna fight you.
No. Better yet, I'm gonna sit here and tell you that karma's a bitch,
and you will get yours.

how do you sleep? when you know I'm missing you like crazy.

Steamboat with Rina, Sheesha with Jel and Rina,
Last minute decision to PH. Had fun, yeah had fun missing you.

the next day, powerhouse again.
my legs are fucking sore, I am super tired and totally not ready for school.
Supperclub next week.
And I wanna puke when I hear," Clubbing"

love my girls. =D

Theres a reason for my continuous partying behavior and I don't wanna elaborate much.
I <3 style="text-align: left; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">ps: you're such a heartbreaker.

Feel this.

2009-11-20T11:09:00.000+08:00

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Never had a drink that I didn't like; got a taste of you, threw up all night.

2009-11-18T16:57:00.006+08:00

Why the smile Dowager?

Had Pasta with pampam and Seeun.=D

PAMPAM!
camera shyyy. ^^

CREAMY CHICKEN YUMYUM.

A beautiful girl can make you dizzy
Like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning
She can make u feel high.
Full a single greatest commodity known to man.

I'm going to write down every time
you ever told me you loved me
& with those 500 pages
I'm going to shove them down your throat
so you'll have enough
I love you's to tell
the next girl who thinks she's your world.

One day you're gonna want that girl. The girl that wasn't perfect but tried to be perfect for you.

You were looking for some fun, and I was asking for a heartache
I should turn my head and run, or I could learn it all the hard way

Well my heart is in your hands, go on and break it
I can take it.

You kill me, you know you do, you kill me well. You like it too, and I can tell.

Yeah, the bad boys are always catching my eye,
I said the bad boys are always spinning in my mind,
Even though I know they’re no good for me it’s the risk I take for the chemistry,
With the bad boys always catching my eye

2009-11-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

The Bitch in me comes alive.

I would turn away the world Just to have you here with me tonight.

2009-11-17T13:26:00.003+08:00

What will you do when faced with two choices?
Simply toss a coin. It works not because it settles the question for you,
but because in that brief moment that the coin is in the air,
you suddenly know what you're hoping for.

If you see me walking with someone else its
not because I love them,
Its because you werent there to walk with me.
If I fall in love with someone else,
its not because I wanted to,
but because you weren't there to catch me.

If I had a ticket to Heaven
and you didn't have one,
I'd tear my ticket to pieces
and go through Hell with you.

I know we don't talk much, and sometimes we even walk right past each other without saying one word. But there are those times when our eyes meet that deep down I know you're missing me as much as I am missing you.

This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl.
In her smile & in her soul & the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its gonna be okay.

She looks at you like you put the stars in the sky.

2009-11-16T00:13:00.004+08:00

The safest moment I had is when I am with you.

My first love was damn near perfect.
I got bored and wanted to experience more so I let him go.
I still don’t know whether I regret my decision or not.
Somedays I feel lonely and I do.
Other times I feel content with being the one night stand and don’t.
No one has been romantically interested in me since
so I start to wonder if I’ll ever be worth it again,
or was I only worth it to him?

Love should never be a secret. If you keep something as complicated as love stored up inside, it could make you sick.

2009-11-12T12:27:00.009+08:00

Power house with Jeline Shanon Nana and friends last sat!
It was packed.
Saw lotsa familiar faces.
Including Primary school crush.
HAHA.
Rina went with her friends too.
Dance with her for a little while and she gave me the nicest mix I ever had.
I want it again RINA.

NANA!

Shanon!

kakashi!

us with Ivann!

The girls, loved.

Keith!

Vincent and Harry

Dave and Jel

Jensen

Whose hand eh, damn extra. tsk,

I swear my face not that fat. HAHA.

I had bruises over all my body after that night.
I am not going to touch alcohol during parties anymore.
except for Rina's drink. =)

Nobody can find you when you're nowhere.Living on the other side of hope.Nobody can hurt you when you don't care.

Lately I've been wishing I had one desire,
something that would make me never want another,
something that would make it so that nothing matters,
all would be clear then.

Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you?

I will never regret you or say that I wish I'd never met you because once upon a time you were exactly what I needed.

2009-11-12T01:24:00.000+08:00

We run back to each other when it’s convenient. We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other, but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality, it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.

Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down; people talk about you when you're not around. People make promises they just can't keep, and I've come to realize that talk is cheap. Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone; too often we wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong." Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts, and we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.

when i text you, that means i miss you.
when i don’t text, that just means
i’m waiting for you to miss me.

No matter what your relationship status is, everyone has someone in the world they'd marry tomorrow if asked by them today.

Sometimes it`s easier to say you don`t care
instead of trying to explain every reason you do.

You had my heart way before you
started to try and get it.

All I need is a sign from you that you think of me
If you don't, then please just say so,
'Cause all I do is think of you.

Future Love.

2009-11-10T13:34:00.001+08:00

a couple of years.
and I'm gonna know your name.
it's like I waited for you forever.
and I know this might sound insane.
but it won't be long
til' we're gonna take this up.
what I'm talking about our future love.

it's so far away.
and baby you're right next door.
got me picturing your face again.
something worth waiting for.
i put all others behind me.
they don't live up.
i know what I want, what I need, to the T.

baby if they ask me.
i would say I don't even know your name.
and when they ask me:
does it change?
no it don't change a thing.
'cause it's something about the way you love me.
and it's something about the way you know me.
that I can't explain enough.

just something about our future love, future love, future love.
something about a future love, future love, future love.

walking hand in hand.
going on the second date.
i can picture how we're touching
and the kiss I can almost taste.
i imagine the all the ways.
we meet for the very first time.
i can see the place, feel the love, at first sight.

baby if they ask me.
i would say I don't even know your name.
and when they ask me:
does it change?
no it don't change a thing.
'cause it's something about the way you love me.
and it's something about the way you know me.
that I can't explain enough.

just something about our future love, future love, future love.
something about a future love, future love, future love.

I feel fate brings me to you time and time again.
your blurry face seems so clear once again.

There are some people in life that make you laugh a little louder, smile a little brighter and live a little better.

2009-11-03T23:28:00.006+08:00

Had Shokudo streets of japan over at heeren with this sweetie of mine.
she loved it!

Love hanging out with just the both of us.
I can talk about everything under the sky, she can understand.
I am sure we can never find someone to replace each other.
( something about a short conversation we exchange)

Alright, gonna stop here. Off to Gossip girl ep 8. S gonna smash B's face into some cake. Damn her.

I look like Mum here.

Chuck: I came to apologize.
Blair: So apologize.

& when you go to bed
& hes all you can think about,
you know your falling in love.

I am not one who seek revenge, my opinion is that Karma will be a bigger bitch that I could ever be.

2009-11-01T22:34:00.005+08:00

Went shopping at vivo and Ion.
bought lotsa of stuffs!
Love my new jeans man.
Love this guy more.

Life with Stanley Tan; is a routine
Life without Stanley; is unbearable.

we're just loving and laughing and busting our asses and we call it living the dream.

2009-11-01T13:09:00.003+08:00

your the only one that

truly knew me. the real me

not the girl that pretends everything

okay, because around you it was

not the girl that fakes smiles, because

when i was with you i didnt have to

now i feel so alone and blank

like a robot because without you

life just isnt worth living much. is it?

you're cynical and beautiful.
you always make a scene.
you're monochrome, delirious.
you're nothing that you seem.
i'm drowning in your vanity.
your laugh is a disease.
you're dirty and sweet.
& you know you're everything to me.

You say girls are confusing? Nice try. Girls are the easiest to understand. We want love. We want trust, we want everything most guys lack. We want someone to change for us; we want them to accept the fact that sometimes we forget to shave. We want someone who doesn`t put drugs & alcohol before us. We want back rubs; we want you to give us flowers. We want you to hold our hand; we want you to be able to have sex with us for the beauty, not just cause you want it. We all just want our own Prince Charming.

i need someone who can ~~keep up~~ with me. i want someone
aggressive, who pushes me to my breaking point, makes
me just want to scream. someone who will tell me i'm not
~~always~~ right, and make me apologize. i need someone to
set me straight becauseno one elsehas ever cared enough
to try.

»♥ever have that person in your life that you
just can't give up on? the one person that
can screw you over time after time, but you
~~always~~ give them another chance and there
is always another chance waiting ~~for them.~~
the personyou knowyou're better off without
but you can't seem to let them go. having
this person in your life, it doesn't make you
weak, it just means you have a weakness.
there is no way to stop loving them, so don't
bother to try... but don't let them define your
life, ~~either.~~ it's yours, and yours alone.

Just some quotes I really really love.
I dont have much of a choice isn't it.
I still love playing on the dark side.

I can see from across the room There’s a tear in his starry eye I was leaving but I’m coming back. Since your heart should be with mine.

2009-10-31T01:49:00.007+08:00

Thanks for the visit in RP. Love you babe, always will.
Glad that you're always somewhere near when I turn my head around.
lovelovelovelovelove. =)

SO CUTEEEEE~!

Yumyummm.

WEBCAM CRAZE
I should be studying that day. but but but....

They’re burning the steps of me and you, keeping us from the world we once knew. Ripping apart our memories, you’re beginning to seem like a dream to me.

But the truth is, if I could be with anyone… it’d still be with you. S.
and thanks for putting up with me. I am such a bitch I know.
thanks for still loving me after knowing I am one.
AND I KNOW YOU LOVE IT WHEN I GOSSIPED, GAVE SARCASTIC REMARKS AND SMIRK WHEN SOMEONE'S IN TROUBLE. i can tellllll.

xoxo.

some pests just wont die after tons of insecticides dont they?

Delon's Birthday! ( Cake smashing day )

2009-10-29T23:11:00.006+08:00

Birthday boy and the girls.

Evidence of the boys dirtying the carpet! Huijun cleared it up for you guys lor!

before smashing the cake on his face.

he kenna my hair!!!

Classsmates!

Roy's big ass.

Dragonboat girl! LOL.

PAM!

Roy!

Judge me, & I’ll prove you wrong. Tell me what to do, & I’ll tell you off. Say I’m not worth it, & watch where I end up. Call me a bitch & I’ll show you one. Fuck me over & I’ll do it to you twice as bad. Call me crazy, but you really have no idea.

This whole falling in love with you thing could become a problem.

2009-10-27T13:28:00.003+08:00

If he misses you, he'll call. If he wants you, he'll say it.
And if he cares, he'll show it.
If not, he can't be worth your time because you're obviously not worth his.

nobody knew that you sent me texts at night saying, "goodnight, i love you" or in the morning saying "good morning beautiful, did you sleep well?" nobody understood why I fell for you.. all they saw was the result ; a broken heart.

Never say you don't have a chance with someone when you haven't even asked.

One day you will come and ask me
"What's more important, your life or mine?"
I will say "mine" and you will walk away never knowing you are my life.

Do everything you want,
And if it's something you'll regret in the morning
-sleep late.

he whispers that he loves her,
but she knows its just a lie;
something to say to pass the time.

I'd rather fight with you than love somebody else.

Just a little something for you slut,
Don't flatter yourself; Your easy, & he's Desperate.

So you failed. You wanna be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling.

2009-10-25T22:32:00.001+08:00

I am falling head over heels with Anthoy Neely once again!
OMG OMG OMG.
How nice if his singing that solo. DAMN!

With those eyes and that smile, i think i'll be here for a while.

2009-10-25T12:10:00.006+08:00

SCHOOL

I miss Joeyyy!

He always told her she was beautiful out of the blue. And when they fought, she wouldn't sleep until they made up. On his birthday night, she wanted to kill him. They talked about the names they wanted for their children. Maybe Andria or Brandon Jr. When she needs to talk, he can't refuse her. They made a great pair, they would team up. they don't need anybody else. I mean when he would cook for her, she would clean up. And no matter the weather; a nice restaurant or a local spot, they had so much fun together. Their dog was like their son in ways. The boy is sorry, he made some mistakes. The girl is confused, she doesn’t know what to do. They’re both kind of singing the blues. The girl starts seeing some other dude, but still tells the boy "he doesn't compare to you". I think they should follow their hearts, like they both did from the start. Cause you can't control fate, and they both know deep down inside, you only get one soulmate.

is anybody satisfied with who they really are?
you could be the moon,
and still be jealous of the stars

People call it passion. Or lust. Or obsession. I don't really care. When I'm with him, it's the only time I feel completely alive. If you've never felt the power of that, then I feel sorry for you.

You know he's something special when no matter what kind of mood you're in, he can always manage to make you smile

2009-10-23T22:17:00.001+08:00

A boy and girl can be just friends, but eventually one of them will fall for the other,
maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever.

Maybe we can spend some time.
I can be your girl.

And sometimes,
I just like to pretend your mine,
even though you're hers forever.

So just kiss me and let my hair messy itself in your fingers.
Let me steady myself in the arms of a man who
won't ask me to be what he needs but lets me exist as I am.

i keep thinking of how much i like talking to you.how good you look when you smile. how much i love your laugh. i daydream about you off and on,replaying pieces of our great conversations,laughing at the funnythings you said or did. i've memorized your face, and the wayyou look at mine.i catch myself smiling again at what i imagine.i wonder what will happen the next time that we are together, a n d e v e n though neither of us knows what the future holds, i know one thing for sure; you are the best thing that's |[♥]| ever happened to me

SOHO.

2009-10-22T22:45:00.005+08:00

I want someone to hug me close and whisper into my ear, " Kiss me"
Llove.

He walks towards me with a smile like the Sun, wait, I think I forget how to breathe.

2009-10-21T11:50:00.006+08:00

To my favorite teacher, who told me never give up. To my 5th grade crush, who i thought I really loved. To the girls I missed, and the guys we kissed. To my ex-best friends, don't know how we grew apart. To my favorite band, and sing-alongs in my car. to the face, I see in my memories. To my first boyfriend, I thought for sure was the one. To my last boyfriend, sorry that I screwed it up. To the ones I loved, but didn't show it enough. To the ones who cared, and who were there from the start. To the love that left, and took a piece of my heart. To the few who'd swear, they'd never go anywhere.. where are you now?

if you really need him, fate wont let you lose him. fate will bring him back. it may not be anytime soon, but he will come back.

each relationship between two persons is absolutely unique. that is why you cannot love two people the same. it simply is not possible. you love each person differently because of who they are and the uniqueness that they draw out of you.

You were just too young and just too smart
Probably the best candidate for a broken heart.
(:LOVE)

For my Dearest S.
for him I’d smile when he's happy,
kiss him when he's sad .. try to be the
perfect girl & calm him when he's mad.
hold his hand to make him strong &
say he’s right when i know he’s wrong.

"I may not be his first, his last, or his only. He's cared about someone else before me and possibly will again, but he cares for me now, and that's all that matters. I don't expect him to be perfect, because I know I'm flawed as well. And it's true, he may not think of me every second of everyday and I may not be the center of his universe but he gave me a part of him that he knows I can break. So I wont hurt him, or try to change him and I won't expect more than I know he can give. My only promise is that I will smile when he makes me happy, yell when he makes me mad, miss him when he's not there, and love him like he'll never break my heart."

you didn't love her. you just didn't want to be alone. or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life. but you didn't love her, because you don't destroy the people you love.

Somedays I am a super bitch, up to my old tricks, but it won't last forever. Next day I'm your super girl, out to save the world. Keeps getting better

2009-10-18T23:21:00.010+08:00

Queen B.

the next time we gonna take picture like this is on Feb 2010. =)

with him; life was routine
without him; life was unbearable

Even if you think the flame has died, there's at
least one lyric that'll hit that last hot spot, and
then you'll find yourself as fucked as you were
the day you lied and said you never wanted to see him again.

everyday, i have to ~~fight back~~ the urge
to text you, or call you, telling myself
if you wanted to talk to me, you would.
Lloves.

one of the hardest parts of life is
deciding whether to ~~walk away~~ or
t r y h a r d e r

The past never look so good. S, I am back.

2009-10-15T23:05:00.006+08:00

Sometimes, when life takes a toll on me, I know I can count on you.

and he said "don't do this to me"
she stared at him, not knowing what to say.
and as he looked at her with those beautiful eyes,
she knew she couldn't leave him

i'm not perfect. i'll annoy you. i'll piss you off,
say stupid things, then take it all back.
but put all that aside and realize that you'll never
find a girl who cares more about you than me

Jensen's 21st Birthday Celebration!
Its the coolest chalet I ever been to.
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENSEN.
and thanks for the company girls!
and lady boss damn cute!! haha.

She's my angel.

Jensen's the only guy. haha.

You might not want to win, when you're in a game with someone like me.
I am a sore loser.
And yes, I am the biggest bitch ever if I'm feeling sore.
No one ever took something away from me without paying.

And if you are reading this, you should be afraid. =)

2009-10-10T04:37:00.004+08:00

Randen came RP. At first, I thought he could come in and sit in the classroom. But the faci rejected my pleadings. Damnit.

Sorry, Randen. you have to be " punished' to stay at the class window. haha.

I swear this is the 1st time I got so much attention in school, from my building to cwp. -_-

Rocker singing.
Damn, his voice's good. He can sing damn well lahhh,
his the only who can sing" wei le ni er huo" so damn well.

dont praise him too much, if not he bhb again. =p

RANDEN CHANGED HIS CLOTHES?

HAHA, nah, we went there twice in a row, I called him up the next day for singing session as my precious Eileen wanna have K session.

I skipped school for this girl lor.

WeiJieeee, whatchu looking at huh?

KAKASHI SENSEI!

On my way to powerhouse, in the cab.

Chuck: It's exactly how it is. The next time you forget you're Blair Waldorf, remember I'm Chuck Bass. And I love you.

Chuck: NYU's hard. But Blair Waldorf does not give up.

I need Chuck in my life.

Maybe Jeline's right, Argh! I dont even wanna think about it man! damn her. stop giving me that cheeky grin. I can imagine it from her face now. damn.

I'm gonna paint the town red before returning. So, watch me Honey. =)

2009-10-09T13:51:00.008+08:00

Cause once a good girl gone bad, they die forever.

As Queen B rose, I rose too.

you stop loving yourself when no one does.

2009-10-09T01:53:00.003+08:00

I've learned this past year. I've changed, I've grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don't. But no matter what - they still happen. That's what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There's something I can do to change that. I've learned to go with my gut, and that it's okay to make mistakes. I've learned that love really is a great as they say it is. I've learned that your friends can't save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I've learned that today is all we have.

I still love you. But love is not enough. Love is not enough for me to forgive and forget. Love is not enough for me when you're not by my side when I am lonely. Love from you is just a word. Love? if this is what love is all about. I rather fall out of love.

So long, incredible 1st love, so long betrayer, so long all the lies and bullshits, so long lonely Saturday nights at ah ma's house. So Long...........

what doesn't kills, makes you stronger.